I've Sinned.. With No Turning Back

Alright, first off I must thank you for coming back to my blog again, I've not been updating it as frequent as expected.

Many things had happened since I last posted. My professor kept pointing me the "wrong" direction, almost had my final year project (FYP) failed, luckily I'm still able to patch things back right before my exams, which eventually led to a lack of time to study for my exam, seriously I don't really know how did I survive last 2 weeks, I slept 4 hours each day, working on FYP, assignments, and exam.

But now, it's all over... I still had to continue my FYP due to incomplete of results, but that's another thing, I'm a free bird now!

To be honest, I have never gave myself in when I'm studying, not a time in these 4 years in NTU. I never got an A, except for lab sessions. I've defeated the purpose of mum sending me to university, it's like dumping her $10,000/$20,000 per year into the sea.

I'm glad she trusted me, for not asking for my result transcript all these years, answers I gave were extremely simple, "OKOK lah~", "Won't fail lah~", "Quite fine lah~".. My mum knew nothing about my routines in NTU, my life in NTU, what I've done, what people I've met, and yet she trusted me on these words, or say, she had no choice but to trust because that was all I told her. I've tried telling her that "my grades are not-so-good lah~" everytime she asked, but I got the feeling that she still thinks that I'm doing "OK" in my studies, which is totally not. Ha...

I've sinned mum, forgive me, for I will make it up for you, I will excel in my careers than many others that had paid more attentions in studies than me. For this, I have a truck load of faith.

Before anything, I want to extent my utmost gratitude for someonethat's been standing by my side for the worst time that I've been through -- My dear Gillian. Although she's not been physically "standing" by my side (we're 5 hours apart...) but I felt her words everytime through phone, it's been 2 months plus since I last met her. And guess what? I'm coming back soon! Probably this Sunday, which is tomorrow.

Many had asked me about what I'm going to do next, after the graduation, I've gave tons of different answers, because I don't know how to answer these people, even though there's only 1 answer in my heart -- I'm not working, anymore.

Keep coming back, or you can get alerted by emails using the "Get Updated" icon top-right. And I'll expose to you my plans.. my thoughts, and my future careers....

Until then, see ya!

Joe