I Am Sexy, Are You Sexy..?

Well, yeah, guess what? I'm sexy. Honestly, it's what people always say to me!

They'd say, "Oh Joe, you've got a "Sexy"... tummy."

Ha.. Sexy tummy. I like it.

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OK, you can call it "cute", I have a "Cute" tummy. Hmm, I... sorta like it, too...

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OK, ok.. I'll admit it. I'm fat, and I have a big tummy, that's for true.

But guess what again? I'm not gonna let that happen! Err, I mean, I'm not gonna let that stay! The tummy must go! Alright, so I'm working on it, in fact, I've already got it all planned: 

I'll be going swimming at least 3 times a week, jogging at least.. 1 time a week (Ha, don't laugh), gym-ing at least 3-4 times week. I guess that's a good start, I've been doing them on and off but haven't really got it "stabilized" and "systemized" it, yet.

It's exactly just like what I was always saying, 

• "I need to get my FYP report done by this week!" (I've written only 7 pages and it's been 5 days)
  
• "I have to start working on my Offshore engineering assignment, due next Monday" (I've not even started looking into the questions)
• "I have to start cleaning up my study table, I feel really lazy at the moment, can I do it tomorrow?" (I recall me saying that since last 2 weeks..)

I could go on and on for a few hours but I guess I'd just stop. This is how I lived my life with, I guess I should stop too, being this way.

Oh wait, I almost forgot, can I ask you a question? Do you like me? NAH-- OF COURSE you like me! I was gonna ask, 

Are you like me?

If you nodded, or at least you whispered "Yes! Yes!" in your heart but you're embarrased to say so, then I think you should stop too. Stop being that way.

I want to change, but I want you to come with me. Can you do that with me? It's hard for me though, to do it all at once, I mean, there are sooooo many things waiting for me to do, or finish up, I have to prioritize. I figured, health is ones most important aspect , so I'm FIRST going to start changing, by getting rid of my tummy(It's an excuse, I rather exercise than doing my homeworks)!

Alright... that's my first goal, lose my tummy. So, I'm going swimming tomorrow, 8.30 in the morning, and start off with that.

What is your first goal?

BooYah! Valentine's Surprise!!

Alright, so in short, I came back from Singapore, thinking I could give a *little* surprise to Gillian, but then, things turned out kinda messy the night before I reached KL (13th Feb), and then even messed up when Gillian's disappointed on THE day (14th Feb), she HAS NOT YET received her surprised I've been hinting her about (which is me meeting her up), I can imagine her looking like a sad stick during her class. HA--HAAA----

Okay, but things got under-control, by me, and her best friend, Joanne, Phew~

She was surprised as hell that day, I couldn't explain her expressions but I thought she looked... Dumb. (Too excited maybe?) Haha.. Sorry dear!

Well, I guess my plan worked, although a bit different from what I initially planned but things went well eventually..

Anyway, I'm not going into details here, Gil said she'll make a detailed report about this somewhere next week, around Monday, maybe, so if you want to know the details then be sure to look out for Gillian's Latest Posts.

I personally don't think it's a SUPER- GREAT- surprise. All I did was come back, told her some lies in the beginning, and show up at the right moment, with flowers of course. However, I'm glad she appreciated it, and she obviously liked it, and.. I think she would be expecting more next time (Darn! who's the dumb one now, I'll have to think harder next time..)

To sum it up, I'm not saying that I'm THE man of the night, or something else good about me, but instead, I'm trying to get the message across to all guys out there, as I've mentioned in my earlier post, Valentine's is a day where you'll have to do MORE, but that doesn't mean you'll have to do LESS for the rest of the 364 days..

Wish ya'll HAD a Happy Valentine's Day. I had a good one, seeing her smiling her way back. Cheers

Younger Than He Would Be, Older Than He Would Seem..

I watched "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" this night..

In case you don't know, it's a story about a boy, borned old, and grew young.

"How remarkable it would be to growing younger by days!" Some might think. But not as it is seemed to be. You would be growing "young" enough to watch your loved ones died upon you, as all it would be, you ended up lonely.

In this movie, Benjamin, he loved a woman, they've met when she was a kid, and he was an "old man", but then they got seperated all at last, they were together again when their age finally met, right in the middle of their lives.

We all have things to treasure, or say, people that we love. Anything, anything at all, our surroundings, or even ourselves, the look that we had, they change, things you can barely resemble, but, some things don't change. Something tells me that it's not about what would we be, but instead, what do we have in our lives, right now, at this moment.

Even if things are going the total opposite way, what would you have done at the period of time? Would you have accepted it? Would you have escaped from it, and let it go? Choices be made, and live still goes on.

Trying my best not to be a spoiler for this movie, Benjamin died peacefully in her arms, at least I thought he was, wasn't quite easy to tell... When ends meet ends, all we've got to do, is to be happy about it, because we've taken every single thing in our lives the best, in the worst cases ever, even with regrets.

I have lots to speak about this,but until you've gotten through the movie, I shall keep them for myself, wondering.. Though I don't really know if I could still remember the pieces when you want to talk about it, I wouldn't mind spending another 3 hours on it, rather than on some other movies which are as long as it is, for this, I recalled... 

Titanic.

Being With You Everyday Is Like Valentine's To Me

This specific post is a response to Gillian's post about Valentine's.

Relationship is the one thing that has never changed ever since human beings have evolved through so many decades. Now there are all kinds of relationships that we can speak about but this post today, is dedicated to Relationships between a couple (male and female only, I despise 'gayers') for Valentine's day is near.

I was looking for Valentine's origin when I stumbled upon an interesting paragraph:

"An alternative theory from Belarus states that the holiday originates from the story of Saint Valentine, who upon rejection by his mistress was so heartbroken that he took a knife to his chest and sent her his still-beating heart as a token of his undying love for her. Hence, heart-shaped cards are now sent as a tribute to his overwhelming passion and suffering."

Most of the people have taken as granted that Valentine's, 14th Feb, is "The Day", and you have got to show your significant other how much your passions goes upon him/her only on that day itself. 

It's like, when a girl says to her boyfriend, "Why it seems as though you don't love me as much as you said you will?!" then the guy goes, "Wait til it's Valentine's and I'll SHOW you how much my love it is to you!" Exaggerated, but true in a sense, have such thoughts ever flashed into your mind before..? 

You've probably forgotten that Valentine's is merely one of the days that help reminds you of the fond memories between both of you, it's just another memorable day to tighten to knots, dispell misunderstandings, and most importantly, it's a proof that you've been walking the "Correct" path down the road.

However, I wouldn't deny the fact that, you'll have to be "EXTRA" passionate to surprise your partner during Valentine's day. Why? It's simple. If you can't win a person's heart in ONE day, don't expect too much for the rest of 364 days. Valentine's if you ask me, is a day where you should do MORE than you usually should, but that doesn't mean you are ought to do LESS for the other days.

Being in a relationship, is a process of learning to be responsible. At least that's what I think. Again, it's simple. If you can't be responsible in a basic boy-girl relationship, don't come telling me you want to be a successful man, businessman, or, whoever you want to be, won't happen in a million years. I bet you.

We all make mistakes in relationships, but most importantly we learn from them. The one BIGGEST mistake almost everyone makes is that - they look at other people's mistakes all the time! What do I mean? I don't need to explain much, try recalling, the moments when you were fighting with your partner, what comes into your head? Yeah, the wrong doings, the bad habits of your partner, never had it been you in the first place, huh?

Wait a minute... I'm not asking you to put the blames on yourself! But just think, if everytime you wanted to start an arguement, and all that shows up in mind, are YOUR faults, YOUR mistakes, will you want to bring the arguement further? No, it stops, naturally, because you're ashamed to insult yourself any further as you speak. See, there's where the key to communication lies..

Mark my words, and try it, next time whenever a fight is starting, do this, and you'd find both of you sitting down working things out - the good way.

As for Gillian, I admit I hadn't been doing much lately, no excuses for that, I'm not a saint, I've made mistakes, I've been forgetful, I hadn't been planning for surprises like I used to, I apologize for that, but I definitely will do my best, as time goes by.

To all that read this post, I want you to have a Great Valentine's, whether you are single or not, and most importantly, I want you to treasure every single relationships that you have, with your friends, your siblings, your parents, your loved ones for the things that I've mentioned above are applicable to most cases.

Joe

OMG! I Failed My Final Year Project!

Nah~ Guess not. The subject above is no longer a threat for me!

It's 2am now but I'm so happy I don't know if I can sleep right now.. I am finally able to run the FYP data on the program, WITH results!!!

But that leads me to another leash of fury, actually me and my team mate did got the correct data input last November itself. So why is it we can't run it, until now..???

Yeah, the reason is simple, at some point you might think it's crap too. But I don't care because I've found out what happened! 

...The only reason why we weren't able to get the results from the program, is because that lousy C++ program that our professor gave us, run the datas TOOOOO SLOWLY. Honestly, we NEVER got the patience to wait, like for 2 minutes? Because everytime it runs half way and hanged, our professor will say it's our data that's incomplete, and he never warned us about the "speed" of the program.............

So what say now? I'm gonna screw that old man over now but giving him the results! I WILL NEVER FAIL MY FYP!

and I finally did it!

Congratulations Joe!

Bloody Careers...

Okay, so yesterday and day before yesterday was Career Fair.

Now since you all know I'm graduating REALLY soon (if everything's fine with my FYP), most of my friends have been spending hours in the Career Fair, trying hard not to let the best opportunity slip out of hands, some already have their resume written, interviewed on the spot, some even got their job before this Career Fair thingy...

Where was I?

Nice question. I was the one that has not written my resume, has not got into any interviews, has not been looking for jobs! Hmm, well, at least I've been to the Career Fair, for half an hour..

After the walk out of the Fair, I do realize most companies nowadays, despite the bad economy, are paying Fresh grads quite well(SGD2,700 - SGD4,000) REGARDLESS of their results. At least that's what they say, according to them Government has around 800 vacancies left for us... All above I'm refering to civil engineering posts.

Lucrative, I would say..

But what's holding me back? I don't know. I don't have the motivations to work, not only as an engineer. More specifically, I'm not buying the ideas to work 9-5.. I like & love what I'm working on now. What the hell, I'm risking my future for this shit! 

I thought I've already sorted it out within myself, that I'd never put myself in such dilemmas again, to work or not to work. But this Career Fair ignites the fear deep down my heart, once again, especially seeing so many of my surroundings looking for jobs, newspapers, online, resume writings, they even talk about it most of the time! 

Furthermore, I'm not only bearing my own consequences, this decision of mine, involves my parent, my uncles and aunts(they ask everytime!), my friends, my girlfriend, and also her parents(lol..).. I'm not making this decisions alone.

All these thoughts, they'll come blowing my mind once in a while, and I'll have to shoo them away each and everytime. Why am I so different than others, I'm putting my future at stake, am I missing something? Did I get the whole concept wrongly? I'm not doubting myself, I know I can work this out, but it seems that with my current progress, time is a significant factor. The fact that I'm graduating soon.

Argh~ I'm Held At Gunpoint!

Well, yeah, the few days that I'm back here, in Singapore from my CNY vacation at home town(KL) have not been kind to me..

I'm literally gun-pointed by my Final Year Project towards the cliff.. What's the fuss you might ask? Just get the god-damn thing DONE, and settle it! That's what you were thinking, yeah? Well I can't really explain things here but my stuff is related to some kinda data extracting, and inputing them into a program.

Argh crap, you're getting boring here.. So in short, the datas are not working, no matter how I've checked, in and out, and my prof is always B.S-ing about my progress. It's only 1 month more to submit my First draft and heck I still have not gotten ANY results to write about..

Despite my "not-good-looking" results, in all honesty, I have NEVER failed any subjects in my Uni life before, no offence but really, it's TOO DAMN HARD to fail in NTU.. But why do I have the hinge that I'm going to fail my biggest project ever, in my FINAL semester?! How laughable..... 

Ha-Ha-HAAAAAAAA...

But, the problem is, I won't let this happen, I have no more intentions to extend my studies. I will try each possible ways to solve this, and if, by all means, they still won't work. I will have no choice but to"go-around" the system... 

Until then, let's see what happens.

Oh, and, Happy Chinese New Year for you guys! (It's still not over yet!)

...and I'm missing Gillian, already(I'll be back!).